Monday, August 9, 2010

Meaning in all things?

I do not know the meaning of all things. I guess that is one more gratitude to add to my list of wonders.
'How is it done Lord' remains in my heart daily as I see the hand of God in things that I wonder about, and all The wonderful things as well.

Small and simple things need to have our notice; for in these things exist Joy and Gladness, not to mention Wonder.
One may wonder at my reference to Wonder here. But it is in those small things that miracles happen, are born, and can with proper attention flourish.

Meeting someone, making a phone call, following a prompting, seeing meaning in our thoughts, circumstances, and events can help produce miracles, as we bow our heads before God and confess HIS Hand in all things. After all He calls himself the "Author and Finisher of our Faith". Hello.

Fall into it, and float but with Gusto. Pay attention, & see the Arm of the Lord revealed.

Lastly give thanks, and Thanks and Praise, to Him from whom all blessings flow.
Wonder of wonders, miracle of Miracles, it is all going according to plan.

Let's just not be 'too busy' for noticing it all, and may we find "our meanings" and be so glad to see His Hand in our 'small and simple things'.

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Summer Wonder

At least that's what we used to call it, calling early to get the kids up and read from the scriptures and make goals, written down, for each day, to complete.

Nowadays we are using less formality and Chris and I are 'cooking up' projects each day to conquer the house and yard which is immense for our style of accomplishing. We aren't good for each other.

During breaks I read and keep coming up with new projects, he disappears back to his room. Like today I was reading a 'get organized blog' and it had listed; "Clean Garage Doors". Boy I added that quick to my master list for Chris, things like that aren't even on my radar 'blips'.

Then it had itemized other projects like; West Garage Wall. Dang. I have one of those too. It said to put large objects there. I haven't room for anything else to go there! And someone already spilled about 20 lbs. of the Duck Feed there, all over the ground, and I really don't want to move all those boxes and containers to clean it up, but.. I guess that's why I have Chris.

Now, how, can I reach and touch his Motivational DNA to want to do that? ( I'm not paying him!) The reason I'm 'project-ing' him to death is so he will want to get a Real Job that will pay!!

Summer it is a Wonder; fleeting away filled with happy memories of hopefully more that heat and work projects.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

The Savior Was Never Rude

I have been examining my life lately. Seeing my weakness has been a goal for over a year.
I haven't taken it seriously enough though, and have just started to think about where my life needs to improve. Several things have come to light even today as I have pondered and asked for help from above.

In our fast-paced world we tend to leave it all on the floor and get all we can out of a day. We are each tired and pushed to our limits. We are ill or just don't feel well. We're hungry, have headaches, feel disappointment and hurt. It happens. It's really life. Very, very, few days go as we plan. Frustration mounts. Then we reach "a breaking point", end of 'our rope', "wits end", or whatever we choose to call it! I've heard some people actually see the color red. We hurt someone, slight them; showing disrespect and rudeness.

I've been asking myself about those times, Times when I've been challenged by my circumstance and said wrong things. Sadly, at my age you'd think I'd get a grip on my tongue Especially when I'm unable to keep my emotions in check. Words fly and we are unable to call them back. And so it goes. Damage. Damnage.

I 'profess' to be" trying to be like Jesus and following in His Way".. in all that I do and say. AND I fall short, and excuse myself with one or several of the aforementioned excuses. I don't like excuses. They bug me. So today in taking it to The Top I have realized, 'the Son of Man hath descended below all these'.

HE didn't allow Himself to dishonor His Father with a get-back thought. He didn't let anyone 'have it'. And He was tested way beyond our tests. He held true to his beliefs.

' He suffered' takes on even greater and new meaning today. He was so valiant and constant. He could have called down legions and struck down despots but he didn't. He yielded His will to His Father. He kept his tongue, and in His life he shows us how.

Maybe this is a good place in my weakness list to begin again. I marvel, and stand all amazed at ' The Grace Jesus offers me!'

I would do well to proffer that 'Grace' so fully to my associates and family. Did the Savior have occasions to lash out? Yes.

HE did NOT do it, except as he felt it dishonored His Father.

I have enough work to do as the Earth turns, and erew the Sun goes down.

Join me won't you? It doesn't have to be an impossible dream.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Tender Mercies/ How is it Done Lord?

From time to time I marvel at the Lord's ability to bless and sustain us when we need a 'little kiss' from above to remind us, no not remind, but reinforce His Presence, and "the helps" we are getting from the unseen world above.
How does He Do It? We are in awe at His mercies, and are only able to acknowledge His Hand and Give Him Gratitude.

Our Two Testifyers:

Cecily left the MTC for Spain, earlier than her 'leave date' suggested she would, 42 days earlier! No chance to email her or even tell her to ask if she could call from the Airport like they still did last year!

I hoped, we hung around here and manned the phones,... no call, did she really leave, was her email a joke? Did she leave?

The next day found us still wondering... the phone rang, it was my darling Draper cousin, Nance. (The one that is always good to be there, even popping in for Pete's and Bekah's Baby blessing, and barely invited, and NOT invited for Cecily's Farewell). She'd be "too busy I think, and it would put that added stress in her life on Sundays' that she doen't need with her calling." (Stake R.S.Pres.)

I greet her, and she recounts the story of her husband yesterday hearing his name called out in the S.L. Airport, "John, John, John." He ultimately sees and greets Cecily. And flies her to New York! Finds her after the flight, reminding her at their parting, "I got you this far Sister Ackerman, now it's up to the Lord to get you to Madrid."

My heart soared at this news, truly, this Mother's heart was comforted.
And now, 1 day later, the skies over Europe are darkened with volcanic ash and many airports are closed.

What a Blessing to KNOW she is there!!

Mercy two; is really number one, as these happened.

Sunday April 11th, we had the BEST DAY! Our Draper kids blessed their 1st child, a daughter, Adaliah Joy, who came especially here on Feb. 18th.

I was lucky and got to have and host the dinner here! For her lovely family of Armstrong's, and ours and some loved friends.

Earlier that week, as I had expected the Cache Valley arrivals, I picked up some extra things that turned out to be 'just right'.

When arriving at the church P&B discovered they had left the key inside their new apt. along with most of their family's food assignments!

Telling us their very humble confession after we arrived at home, suddenly, with not much trouble, Son's-in-law, daughter's, Son's, and Daughter's-in-law jumped to the tasks, and from the 'inspired' purchases, ALL was WELL.
A salad, drinks, and dessert appeared, and the cruse never failed, there was enough and to spare!

It was a Miracle!

Even the ensuing 'Sleep-over', made us think; this should be a traditional event! "The new couple stays over the night of the blessing"! Get's lots of down time to relax, share hearts, and hold baby, after everyone else has gone!

This unplanned circumstance topped off the day better for me than any event of record I remember. And confirmed to me was; 'these miracles were for them', not me, but I got to help-- and was it ever filled with Joy!

Sunday, April 4, 2010

"She's Gone, Oh Yeh, I'll Pay the Devil...."

No, Noone can replace Our girl, the miracle gift from God for my Old Age! Yes she is gone but still manifesting herself in expected and unexpected ways.
I'll enumerate a few:
*Email from the MTC!
*Shame for not writing more...I've sent 2 packages and 2 emails and A postcard, but am being out-done by others.
*Lists of requests: much of which I take satisfaction in. (I will not say the dreaded I.T.Y.S).

The house is quieter, more empty than ever, her reminders abound. We never got enough done in a day to please me. And now she's getting so much done in her day I'm jealous.

Just A Year and a Half........
It will be Spiritual. Tearful. And full of growing experiences for us both. We, Jim and I, are now attached to email like an invisible ambilical cord still exists. She holds our hearts in a strange and not so healthy way, or so several boy's told her.

Are all our eggs in her basket? Most definitely NOT. We have done this casting forth before. But we are feeling rather like expectant parents, hanging on every pain, sigh, complaint, or elation, and doing our share of reading between the lines.

We wait, and take joy in this process we have come to know. It has a pattern of wonder that evolves in God's good time, and teaches us to 'wait upon the Lord' and do our best to do Our part. And check our mailboxes.

Monday, March 15, 2010

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Are We A Quart Low?

It's Sunday and we have had an Incredible Sabbath so far. The Holy Ghost has touched us and Testified. I have returned home rejoicing about God's mysterious ways, AND the wonders He performs. But lest I get off track let me just share a few of the lessons from the week. These, recorded, may serve to condemn me but as we were taught today they bare posting.

Our experiences with the Spirit are what I will refer to in this post today.... The missionary homecoming referenced these:
* Listen listen, to the still small voice,
* opportunities missed or taken will likely have long term results as well,
* you will not be asked by the Spirit to do anything that isn't important!
Getting this all down will allow me to refer, remember, repent again, and" follow, follow follow, follow", as the song goes.
My Example: Why do we as young Mom's not do as we are directed? WHY? Well we say, WE have EXCUSES and they are GOOD One's!!
R.S. : Explain to another sister what not using the Spirit has cost you and tell about the results.
With a tender heart we shared what we had learned. I was tearful explaining, my continued ignoring the promptings to get out of bed and visit my children's bedsides to tell them how much they meant to me and how much I loved them. Thinking Jim's nightly ritual of sweet dreams took so long and seemed adequate considering how tired I was and sometimes I had just had enough day already. Choosing to tell them less, rather than more in my exhaustion. Also didn't it seem rather redundant, hadn't they just been told? We had prayers, FHE, read scriptures and it would further remind me of what we hadn't done, were missing doing, and of the weaknesses we possessed seeing them in those cluttered rooms...etc.

Big Note to Self: The relationships we develop here we keep!
Work at them! play at them!
Cherish this work, for it is being handed down!
Warning: Whatever you are you teach!
These precious years cannot be returned!
The lessons from today help me realize we have been foolishly too human; thinking ourselves unequal to the tasks, thinking we're able to stall, do it later, offer alternatives, and even negotiate, with The Spirit??? HELLO! WHAT WAS I THINKING?

What a Blessed Breakthrough day, it begs detailed recording in my journal.

Additionally as I thought this through.... similarly the Prophet's and Brethren's counsel we receive are a lot like "prompting's"; ...so easily put aside for a better or more convenient time.(sic).. Or ignored.
I'm thinking specifically "Preparedness/Provident Living' here.

Recently our ward had a chance to use our 72 hour kits/go boxes to make an evening meal. Participation was wholly
optional, still coming as a Stake request, we had under 12% 'do'-ing it. There were no deductions, the gtrading scale was only participate: yes/no, "Do /Not Do", And we even counted try as Yes.

With the Ten Virgins, 50% had oil in their lamps, 50% did not. I was not pleased with my preparations. I have had my personal warnings. And foolishly I still struggled, lacked, shrank, and was disappointed in myself. I found my self a quart low even with all the warnings and 'prompts' I've received." If it had been more than a test...", I'd have been shut out of 'the wedding'!

RESOLVE: I am going to learn to obey and to act! Be obedient to the Holy Ghost. Listen Now- to the still small voice, and follow, follow follow, follow follow!